Friday, June 27, 2008

Beauty







so, i was cleaning out my memory card from last summer,


and i stumbled across theses.


they are just a small sample of


how breathtakingly beautiful it is up there


in northern minnesota and canada.


and thats why i'm excited to go this year.


And this, of course:


=P Gotta love those tame chipmunks!

Thursday, June 26, 2008

happyface =]

i haven't been this happy in a long time.
everything in my life is pretty much right where i want it to be.
i wish i could freeze time and stay like this forever.

1. my dad and i are getting along-ish
2. everyone is pretty much getting along
3. i got some amazing birthday presents, including a new camera
4. isaac and i have gotten closer, but not like that. just closer, as in- we talk more and tell each other more secrets
5. muffin is super cuddly lately and he hasnt ran away for a while
6. all my electronics (phone, ipod, camera) are not lost or broken
7. i saw bri, jordan, and sammy today
8. no icky boys bug me anymore
9. only one more day of driver's ed
10. i go on vacation next week

i could go on about other things that may seem minor to you, but seem big to me.
i just wanted to take the time to say this:

=]

Wednesday, June 25, 2008

hello, my blog is.... rAnDoM? o.O


dearest ex-boyfriend:

*ninja thigh grab!!!*
ahem. anyways....
well, you're pretty much amazazing. you're my favorite little emo kid, so don't turn into a vampire, because then i couldn't stay away from you, so i'd become vampire as well. so don't have sex with any vampires, and we'll both be just swell! =P
p.s. i saw some european books at walmart today.
fyi. ;)




to marty the janitor.

yes, i know your pants are off and you're horny, but your just going to have to wait. i'm on the phone with jericho, my newest bff. hehehe =]
te amo/me encanta tu!
(however you say it...)
you're one awesome chica, and your shirt says margaritaville... lets go there sometime, kapeesh?
see you in margartville!
xoxo's





sammy::
haha. nice bubbles. i'm jealous of your amazing blowing- talents. =p
guess what? you're one spiffy friendo, and i think you're prty coolz.
and as mr hovden says, "just remember. always blow it good and hard. (car horns, of course, silly)"
keep rockin! :]




"never blow something unless you know its previous blowers."
always live by that rule, brianne.
my dad says he can "tweak your car up a bit, if you want him to."
so keep that in mind, in case you ever want your car to be "B.A." or "pimpin"
and try try try try try to stay off that acid!
i know its tempting, and it makes you look all cool and stoned and stuff, but i wouldnt want your face to explode because of massive acid intake.
(and i think i'll use "muffin's" 20$ to help buy my new camera. =] )



wifeykins,

roawr. thats the noise a lion makes.
"roawr!," rawred the lion, "watch out for those puddles!"
o.O
Nomnomnomnom. i made you a fetus, but i eateded it. :(
by the way, did you ever get your nancy drew installed?
it sounds like a bundle of fun.
so i was thinking... if i can teach kirby to hardcore dance, do you think i can teach her to break dance? that would be stellar awesome. just like you! =D
whoa. we can has a pretty amazing picture that i put
<- right here!
that was good fun, the dance. hehe. my chucks...
...ellipsis...
<33334 forevers & evers





poof!
whoa! look in the sky! its a bird! its a skydiver!
Its... Its.....
FAITHAROO!!!
faithers, sweetheart, you are MY superhero and nuthinz evr gonna change that, okay? okay.
moosehug! that was random/awesome.
hope you enjoy all of my random animal hugz.
i know you enjoy hugs, in general.
heidihug! thats one crazy animal hug....
p.s. it kinda looks like you stole some of bri's acid in this pic. try not to do that. =P
<33333333333333333333333333333333



Kraft Elizabetharoni & Cheese- Mmmm! Its the Cheesiest!!!
i love cheese.
and... i love you.
"omg, girls, i think i like broke a nail and stuff!!"
i hope you enjoy your cuties little piano music and such. i did not even know you play piano, jeesh, thanks for TELLING me. just playing. =P
i am a super secret artichoke. (shhhh!)
oh, and stay off the mariwana, k?
<3, honey bunches of oats

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

politix.

Basically, global warming is a crock.
It's a big hoax that scientists and environmentalists have thrown out there
to make themselves famous and to get everyone in a big scare.

and whats really dumb is E80.
I mean, we're burning our food for fuel.
Sure, it sounds good... 20% corn in our gas tank?
but the reality of it is this:
if we use our corn for fuel, what will we eat??

here's the breakdown:
1. the demand for corn will go up, thus raising the price of corn.
2. if the price of corn goes up, farmers will have to pay more to feed their cattle corn.
3. the farmers will then make up for the costs by raising the price of meat.
4. meat will become more expensive.
5. corn is also used to make LOTS of other common foods. (e.x.: cereal, bread, granola bars, etc.)6. all our food will become expensive!

and long story short, the price of food will go up A LOT,
and gas will stay about the same because theres still that 80% fuel we have to pay for.

Q:
why do we have to buy expensive, foreign fuel when we have just as good of fuel in our country?
A:
because crazy environmentalists are afraid that we will "kill the earth" or whatever.
so then, why can china, and afganistan, and europe all drill for oil,
but we can't because it will hurt our earth?
don't those other countries share the exact same earth?!

its like this:lets say you have a pumpkin patch in your yard.
well, the government comes in and says "you can't harvest those pumpkins,
because it may harm the earth, so you have to buy european pumpkins,
to save the planet."
except european pumpkins cost 10$ each, when you can get yours for free.
sound good to you?

evironmentalists do not want us to drive cars,
but yet, how do THEY get to work everyday?
cars.

they say we need to use electric cars.
but you have to charge them, with electricity.
where does electricity come from?
power plants.
and apparantly, power plants are bad too,
because they polute the earth with all the smoke.
so then what ARE we supposed to drive??

actually, cars, factories, and power plants have come a long way since the 1940s...
they were terrible on pollution and gas mileage, etc then, but now?
they are much better.
factories and power plants have filters that remove most of the pollution coming out of their chimneys.
cars get 20-30 miles per gallon, when they used to get approx. 10-15.

here's what will happen if/when barrack obama becomes president.
he says he will "start a lot of programs" or whatever.
but what he's really saying is
he's going to raise taxes and use YOUR hard-earned cash to:

a) give away to katrina victims,
but it doesnt always go to them. it was in the newpaper a week or so ago
that a man from cf spammed the government into thinking he was a katrina victim.
they gave him a 1,000$ gift card, which he used to buy a flat screen TV.

b) give to poor people, and some of those people live "in the ghettos"
so they'll spend all that money on drugs, guns, or alcohol.

c) raise the congressmen's taxes even more. they already make $169,300 per year.

so there you have it. if you vote for obama, your money will most likely fund either
hackers' TVs, gangsters' drugs, or rich congressmens' raises.

and that's my take on politix.
the end.
questions??

sorrrry.....

so i've now changed my url back to heidapalooza...
sorry about all the confusion..
i had to change it to eliminate a certain stalker. *cough*
thank you for your patience, good citizens
lots of love,
heidi

Sunday, June 22, 2008

=D hehehe.

me: so i was watching a movie with my parents, but then it started getting awkward cause they were like having sex and stuff
isaac: WHAT?!? your parents were having sex?! during a movie??!!
me: nononono, i meant the ppl in the MOVIE were having sex....rotfl.
isaac: oooh. thats a relief. but you know, your parents DID have sex once... or twice... or a lot... and thats why you're here!!
me: ...thanks, isaac. its okay, i wasn't planning on eating my supper anyways.

Super8sucks.

Urbana Super 8 manager:

I recently stayed at you're hotel, and i was not pleased. here is my feedback:

we were in urbana, and needed to get a hotel. so we looked up "super 8" in the phone book, and called it, and booked a room. but later, we discovered that we had reserved a room in the wrong town, champaign.

so we politely asked if we could switch hotels, from the champaign Super 8, to the urbana Super 8. we had assumed it would not be a big deal, since they are affiliated.

not only were we rejected, the front desk attendant was excessively rude to us throughout our stay.
1. she very rudely told us that we could not switch hotels. "no. you can't. the end." "enjoy your stay here. *sarcasm*"
2. when we picked up a buisness card, she said "would you like like 1-800 number to complain, too?"
3. when we asked for an extra towel, she sighed, rolled her eyes, and then stomped off to get one, and slammed the door, then shoved it into my hands
4. when we were leaving, she was standing outside the hotel, talking loudly on a cell phone, smoking a cigarette, and not attending the desk. we had to wait for her to finish her "highly important phone call" (she was talking to her mom about some random car show.) before we could check out.

we were not at all pleased with our stay, and we don't intend on staying again, or recommending Super 8 to anyone else.

sincerely,
an annoyed customer

Monday, June 16, 2008

What can I say?

Its all about embracing change.
Learning to accept it and make the best of it.
Nothing lasts forever.

They say history has a way of repeating itself.
Don't let it.

Don't let it happen again.

Sunday, June 15, 2008

The Challenge

I have a challenge for everyone.

Step 1: compose a list of 10 bad things in your life. 10 things that bug you about people.
go ahead, type it.

Step 2: Select your whole list.
Step 3: Press the DELETE button.

There. Did that feel good? because it should have. Sometimes it helps me to just forget about my troubles for a while.

Today, I had a lot of things on my mind. And you know what i did? I walked down to the corner and sat. I didn't even really think. I just sat. And Muffin came too, so i petted him
I know it may not solve your problems, but it helps keep them in proportion.

Now. Let's try to optimistically place our minds on another topic.
I want you (yes, you) to make a list with as many good things as you can.
Here's mine:


Things I'm grateful for:
1. I have you. If you're reading this, thank you. thanks for caring about my life.
2. I have a non-tornadoed/non-flooded house to live in.
3. I live in a country where I can say what I want, believe what I want, and for the most part, do what I want.
4. I have a really big family who cares about me.
5. I have food, shelter, water, and clothing. Basically the only necessities in life.
6. I have a pretty cool job starting next august, and detasseling to look forward to.
7. I am healthy, for the most part. (just allergies)
8. I have a computer in which to type my blog on.
9. I have a fridge full of cream cheese. thanks guys =]
10. I have a mother who really cares about me and wants the best for me.
11. I have Muffin. He may look like just a lump of fat to you, but for me, he's amazing. He's always there for me, even when others aren't, and he'll always listen to what I have to say. He keeps all my secrets and doesn't make fun of me for them.
12. I have a pretty cool room, house, ipod, bird, closet, pingpong table, tv, dvd collection, life.
13. I'm lucky enough to have a couple groups of friends.
14. My parents arent divorced.
15. I have a straight-gay friend who is amazing.
16. I'm alive.

I could go on for a long time, but my mom is telling me to get off the computer.
So go ahead. Take the challenge. It helps.
<3

Saturday, June 14, 2008

Confessions

Sometimes when I first meet someone,
I act sort of shy and cold because
I don't want to be myself
because I'm afraid they won't like me.

how i spend my life:
1% being mad at friends
2% shopping
3% on facebook/blogger
9% laughing
10% eating
12% being sad
20% at school
43% sleeping

It takes a long time for someone to earn my trust,
but it takes even longer for them to win it back.

Occasionally, I lie about how I really feel.
But lately, I've done that so often
that I don't even know how I really feel.

I don't really know where I'm supposed to be right now.
It feels so right, but its too good to be true.

I'm so confused about so many people right now.
including myself.
Even though I shouldn't even care about some of them,
I still do.

When I say I care,
Sometimes I really don't.
When I say I don't care,
Sometimes I really do.

I imagine myself in lots of people's shoes.
Sometimes I think,
"I would LOVE to be *insert name here*!!"
and other times, i think,
"It must suck to be *insert name here*!!"
which is otherwise known as judging people.
i tend to do that a lot.

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

Just Friends

we.

are.

just.

friends.



the end.

Sunday, June 8, 2008

people of europe, earth, and iowa

here are some rants to/for the people in my life.
don't make assumptions about which describes you,
because you're probably wrong.
you threw me down just like a cigarette thats still hot.
don't be surprised when i come back and burn you.
i never could have predicted that we would grow to be this good of friends. you cheer me up when i need it most, and i can't understand how i got through life without you. thank you.
i don't even know where to start. i'll say this: i love you. sure, we fight sometimes. but i don't regret a single moment i've spent with you. i hope you stay in my life forever. you're my best friend.
i can't believe what our relationship has come to. i trusted you with everything. you were like a sister. but now, i wish you would go far away and never come back. you stabbed me in the back and left a hole in my heart that no one seems to be able to fill. why am i finding it so hard to hate you?
even though we may not be tight like spandex, you're a major part of my life. i love listening to everything you have to say. i'm glad i have you in my life. =]
you're my most dependable friend. you listen to all my rants and make an attempt to cheer me up. i wish you the best with him, however your relationship ends up.
thanks for making my life hell. now go die.
don't do it. i know that they tempt you, but you're stronger than that. don't let temptation ruin your life. i hope we stay this good of friends, so don't blow it by giving in.
i smile when i think back to our old friendship. why did i let us drift away?
i thought i knew you, but lately, it seems like i've barely met you. why are you doing this to yourself? can't you see what you're doing??
you've shown me what a real friend can be like. thank you for everything. i really hope life works out for you.
from ninja thigh grabs, to european books, we have the best inside jokes ever. and i'm sorry we didnt work out. friends always beat boyfriends. remember that. i love you.
you're one of my biggest regrets. some days, i wish we had never met. i can't believe you are honestly that shallow. please. stay away from me.
you've been such a good friend to me the past few months. i think we have a lot in common, when it comes to interests like music, clothes, and activities. i hope our friendship continues building the next few years.
when i met you last summer, i wasn't sure about you. but now, our friendship is one of the strongest.
i love texting you and hanging out. i love sharing stories about our stalkers and having weight-gain contests. i'm so glad you came here.
i'm sorry i don't treat you the way i should. you deserve better. much, much better. you're a magnificant soul and i love you.
i miss you.
why?? why me? i told you to stay away, but why do i always see your name in my inbox? please stop before i call animal control! i don't want anything to do with you.
you're an amazing girl, and i just can't understand why so much crap happens to you. you have the best stories and i simply love talking to you. <3

Friday, June 6, 2008

I Heart Question Mark

Wish I had concentrated
They said love was complicated
But it's something i just fell into
And it was overated
But just look what
I created came out alive,
But i'm black and blue oooh!
But boy you ask me if I'm all right
Think about what I had to do OOOH!

Wake up
Smell my break up
Fix my heart
Put on my make up
Another mess i didn't plan
And i bet you thought you beat me
Wish you could only see
I got an I heart ? written on the back of my hand.

I'd be fine if you just walked by
But you had to talk about why
You were wrong and i was right
But i can't believe you made me sit at home cry
like a baby wait right
by the phone every night
And now you ask about you and I
There's no you and I Remember
what you put me through I had to

Wake up
Smell my break up
Fix my heart
Put on my make up
Another mess i didn't plan
And i bet you thought you beat me
Wish you could only see
I got an I heart ? written on the back of my hand.


And when you're home all alone at night
You still wonder why
You took everything i had away but
I haven't thought about you and I
There's no you and I
And I know someday you will

Wake up smell my break up
Realize that we won't make up
It didn't go the way you planned
And You'll know you didn't beat me
When you look down and see
I got an I heart ? written on the back of my hand

Thursday, June 5, 2008

Will I ever be good enough for You??

Hey Dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according To plan?
Do you think I’m wasting My time
doing things I Wanna do?
But it hurts when you Disapprove
all along

My whole Life, you've constantly criticized me.
Everyone is better than me, according to you.
Well, maybe thats true.

Even though I tried not to show it,
It hurt me each time you said you didn't care about me.
It hurt me each time you compared me to other people,
saying, "why can't you be more like them?"

Every single dream I ever had,
You took it and crushed it.
Crushed it into little bitesize pieces,
by saying, "You will never be good enough"

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I’m never gonna be good Enough for you
I can’t pretend that I’m alright
And you can’t change me
I used to listen to you.
I used to think,
"hmm, maybe if i change myself and become this,
I'll be good enough for him."
I can't believe I let you get to me.
Maybe I am as stupid as you say.
Or Maybe I'm stupid for listening to you.
You always have to control me.
You controlled what I did,
Who my friends were,
And what I thought of myself.
I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be My hero?
All the days You spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you
don’t Care anymore
Some days I wish we could just go back.
Back to the days where you accepted me for who i was.
Back to when "Normal" was fine with you.
Some days I wish You were normal.
Like all the other dads, who congratulate their kids.
Who say "I love you" at least once.
But my ears have never heard
those words come out of your mouth.
Not once.
Nothing’s gonna change
The things that you said
Nothing’s gonna make this
Right again
Please don’t turn your back
I can’t believe it’s hard
Just to talk to you
But you don’t understand
And every now and then,
when you really want something from me,
"oh, by the way, will you bake me a pie for next tuesday?"
"oh, by the way, will you wash my boat for me?"
you pretend like you actually care about me for a while.
You trick me into thinking
"Huh. maybe things are starting to change."
"Maybe he's starting to change"
But then you turn around and go right back to all your old ways.
Well I'm just here to say this:
I'm done.
Done listening to your pathetic criticizm,
Done taking all your crap,
Done believing any word you say.
done.
Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I’m sorry I can’t be Perfect
Now it’s just too late
And we can’t go back
I’m sorry I can’t be Perfect
Perfect - Simple Plan

Tuesday, June 3, 2008

Mmm... Tacos...

Well since so many of you have asked....
Here it is!


The Taco Story
(As descibed to Faithe)

so basically, me and my jtown gang decided to have a gno (girls nite out)
well first, we went to taco johns (or taco bell, i can never remember)and i ordered a delicious quesidilla meal thingy.
then it came with a taco. so i was like "oh. thats cool i guess."but by the time i was done with my quesidilla, i didnt have room for the taco. and it looked muy sabroso, and i didnt want to just through it away.
so, i did the only normal thing to do- i shoved it in my purse for later use.
and then we're all at the mall shopping and such, and my friend alyssa is all like... "WHATS THAT SMELL!?!?"and we were all like "idk. my bff jill?"
so anyways, we're at yonkers and i bought a cute shirt. i'm at the checkout and all, and then i open my purse and there was like this big stench wave! it reeked!!! and i was like "oooh. maybe this wasnt one of my brighter ideas."
well, long story short, yonkers made me mad because they wouldnt take my friggin coupons, so i left them a smelly little "surprise"...when she looked away, i snuck the rotten taco thing behind the counter into a shelf and she never noticed, but as we were walking away, my friend noticed the cashier chick sniffing her pits to see if the smell was coming from her.
the end.
true story. ♥