I realized.

I talked about him all the time, because I needed to reassure myself.

I stuck up for him all the time, because i wanted to believe what i was saying was true.

Sometimes, he would sneakily tear my confidence down, without me even noticing. it got to the point where i barely believe in myself anymore.

He made me think that he was all the better i deserved.

I dated him for 9 fucking months.

Really… what was i thinking? I’m glad I made this mistake. I’m glad. Cause now i wont make another. Because unlike you, i learn from my mistakes.

I don’t miss him.

I find it hard to believe I used to love him.

After those messages he sent, i barely even care anymore.

People were nice to him just because of me.

Thats 9 months of my life i’m never getting back.

Update on my life.

In case we havent talked in a while, this is for you.

1) Me and Alex broke up.
He skipped my 16th birthday party to play videogames.

2) Now, alex is being a huge dick.
"this is the last im talking to you this summer, i cant stand it anymore, you are being so fucking two faced i dont know what the fuck you want from me. i fucking told you we could save it but you were too fucking wraped up in your precious mychal to fucking give me a chance. i cant talk or think of you without getting pissed then depressed and wanting to break into tears. the blood of my destroyed heart is on YOUR hands and it forever will be. hope fucking mychal is worth losing me, prolly forever. i earsed all your phoney love messeges from my phone because they were never true. and your note? you took EVERYTHING i said to you about how we could save us and said it to me. im gone, this is my goodbye"

3) Good news? Mychal.
We're dating. Here's how:
He gave me a mailbox, filled with animals he won from a crane machine.
and a envelope. inside, was my 2 favorite pokemon cards, and a note asking me out.
so of course i said yes =]

4) I'm grounded, until tuesday. =/ so if i havent replyed to your texts, i dont hate you.

5) I'm definately pumped for next weekend. =]

6) I'm getting to know Holly Hildreth (MY FREAKIN' PHOTO IDOL) through mychal. she said she likes me, and she likes my pictures!!!!11one

7) I bought a laptop for 700$. =P

8) Eight things? i'm lame.

butyeah.